Tonight I jumped on the computer to download pictures off my phone because it is full and I needed to free up some space.
As I look through the past few months of photos I can’t explain what I’m feeling but feel like I need to quiet my brain.
It is almost midnight and I had no intention of writing but everyday since I don’t know, say three months ago I have been telling myself I will write a blog post… or write in my regular journal but I haven’t done much of either.
I’m really good at processing things better when I write them out. So needless to say, I haven’t been doing well at processing my day to day and have started to feel overwhelmed with emotion as of late.
Even now. Right now in this moment, when no one is needing my attention, as I listen to the white noise of the babes sound machine accompanied by the deep breathing of Micah sound asleep I can’t shake this anxious feeling. But of what exactly, I couldn’t tell you.
And of course I haven’t the time to sort through it all which basically is a perfect catch twenty-two situation I have on my hands.
Really, it isn’t about having too much on my plate. It’s more about having too much on my mind and carrying stuff in my heart.
I have been trying to be very intentional with my time and filling my days with very little since Elsie started pre-school. We haven’t really adjusted to the school schedule because Elsie hasn’t really adjusted to pre-school in general. So my time with her afterward plus my time with Vernon while she is at school has kind of become my selfish time with each of them.
I will say, Elsie hating pre-school hasn’t helped my emotional state and so it only adds to what I already have piling up and so here we are back to me feeling anxious, tired and ready to sift through all I have swirling around in my head ultimately because I need to make more room for Jesus in my heart.
I understand that even if I don’t get the chance to process all that has been going on for months I know it is necessary to just dump the things I can’t change or go back and fix. Not a sweeping it under the rug type of thing either (ain’t no body got time for dat) I mean literally just dump some of these piles I have collected in order to fill that space with His truths instead.
So much harder to actually apply that to my life. I know what I need to do, yet I still feel heavy hearted and that’s because I know it’s not an overnight fix but something I need to continually work on. Like errday.
I need to be filled with the spirit.
Praying the scriptures, reading the word, hanging with people who point me back to Jesus and encourage me, not leaving empty space in my heart or mind to be filled with anything other than His truths.
Even as I’m typing I’m nodding my head “yes” like this is new news, but really I just haven’t been disciplined to make sure I’m CONSTANTLY doing these things and was using a million excuses of why I didn’t have time when really I just wasn’t making time.
I need to say it just for the sake of saying it but I really am okay. I’m good but just in a weird place right now with all my thoughts and words tangled together in a way that I can’t quite share what God is and has been teaching me. He is working things out in me which is always a good thing and I know that.
For now I wanted to post these pictures from this past week while we were visiting Micah’s parents in Ruidoso, NM for the Aspen Festival. It was so beautiful and felt so much like Fall my heart almost bursted everyday we stepped outside! Such an amazing time soaking up all the family who came to visit and just unwinding from our normal day to day.
So I know this post was totally random and you basically just listened to me give myself a bible spanking but let’s just go with it mmmkay.
Elsie is my sweet and simple girl.
She is shy and sensitive and doesn’t like a lot of fuss. Which is part of the reason we haven’t done birthday parties for her in the past.
She likes what she likes and is probably why she wears the same tutu or princess dress every. single. day. And sticks to the same food groups of apples, peanut butter, fruit snacks or chick-fil-A. (plus a few other staples)
In this past year she has blossomed some more and has ventured out of her comfort zone (a little) and knew we just wanted something very simple and sweet to celebrate her birthday.
So we had planned on Micah taking off work on her special day so we could take her to Disneyland, just her. My mama would stay with Vernon so we could take on Disneyland Big Girl Status and ride the faster rides and stand in line to meet the princesses.
Then last minute (like literally, last minute) once I realized my mom was on spring break I asked Elsie if she wanted to have a small party with some friends. She immediately said no. She just wanted cake with us and my family.
We haven’t really had a party for her except for her first so I just thought maybe we should ask just in case, but her response didn’t surprise me.
I figured as much.
A day had gone by and I heard her talking to Vernon about her tutu tea party she was going to have and who all was invited.
Puzzled by this conversation she was having I asked her again…”do you want a small party sweetie”
She jumped up and down and screamed “YES”
So that was that and we threw something together!
And she loved it!
The past couple days have been so fun celebrating our sweet girl. I was so blessed by my brother and Katie jumping in last minute to decorate and + help out with the party! And for my mama and all that she always does, even when I’m crazy and plan an event with only three days notice!
For all our friends and family who came and celebrated and for all who called, emailed, instagrammed and sent packages. You all have made our Pearl feel more special than I think she has ever felt.
Tonight before bed she said, “Mama, is was so special huh? I love everyone”
I knew she meant her birthday and I knew exactly what she felt.
All make for a lovely weekend indeed.
I attended a Mother/Daughter Tea at my mama’s church and it was so nice to hang just her and I. It is rare we get to do that these days and I was blessed by that time together.
When I arrived home I stopped at an estate sale happening on my street and scored lots of vintage goodies only to discover that Micah had gone earlier to the same sale while I was at the tea and had purchased a vintage Royal typewriter, in working condition with ink + extra vintage typing paper! I was happy dancing all over the place!
We ended our beautiful weekend in Simi Valley at my cousins baby shower and had a blast. Micah and I agreed that baby showers are just happy and bring out so much goodness in everyone there. It’s so fun to watch parents-to-be glow with giddiness with the anticipation of the arrival of their sweet bundle but also fun to see their faces as they open gift after gift and get overwhelmed with all that is needed to take care of a tiny little person. I remember that feeling and love to be reminded that only four years ago we were getting ready to embark on the same adventure of parenthood.
Hope you all had a fabulous Spring weekend!
Oh and just in case you missed it, a giveaway for a pair of Hunter Boots went live this Saturday HERE. Don’t miss out! Your choice color and style.
Also, my sweet friend Casey and I are hosting a Instagram giveaway for this hoop! May be the last time I make this one so make sure to check out how to enter by following both our feeds @caseyleighwiegand and @takethecannoli1
So now as we move out of the weekend and into holiday mode, are you all as excited for this Easter week as I am? Any Easter traditions you look forward to doing? We can’t wait to dye eggs, put together Easter baskets, prepare yummy food but most importantly celebrate the resurrection of Christ!
Does that translate the same to you as it does to me?
For me I think: Organizing. Cleaning. Gutting. But mostly just ridding of any used clothes that fill up the space in our drawers when the only thing we actually wear are items that hang in our closets.
I realized that the culprit behind our drawers overflowing resulting in them never closing completely was unworn t-shirts. I would love to say that this was just Micah’s drawers filled with old band shirts he never wears but it’s not. Actually I think the shirts in my drawers makes me more of the perpetrator seeing how I NEVER wear shirts. Unless it’s to sleep in so why do I have so many?
Of course we’ve picked some up at concerts or was gifted some rad ones from friends but there are also ones like this revamped vintage Blondie T-shirt (pictured below) I have had for almost 10 years but have only worn once that I just could never part with.
This year as we are looking to downsize and wanting to live with less I knew most of these unused and unworn items needed to go. As I was making piles to garage sale I realized there were just a few that I loved too much to let go and that’s when I realized I could repurpose them into something I would actually use.
I thought…”I could turn these unworn shirts into wall art! And not just any wall art but Hoop Art!”
Not to mention I didn’t have to purchase anything additional to make these. #daveramseywouldbeproud
I grabbed some wood hoops and some acrylic paint I had on hand and went to town.
Easy Peasy. The best part is Micah loves them too! Total Win!
I realized after making the Gaslight Anthem one that I didn’t snap any photos of the process because I didn’t know I would be sharing this but after loving how it turned out made sure to snap some of the Blondie T-shirt process, with my iPhone no less and in awful lighting. #youarewelcome
So if you have some t-shirts you love but never wear or if your husband has some he loves but you want to throw out, here is a fun, quick and ridiculously inexpensive way to salvage them.
side note: I used the cheap hoops I had on hand from Michael’s or Joann’s Craft, not my high grade rounded edge ones I use for my shop. I knew I would either be painting them or would be hanging them in my own home so didn’t care about the quality
After you have your supplies slide in bottom part of hoop inside of the shirt and then place the top part of hoop on the outside. Make sure to center the artwork you want displayed in the hoop and then fasten tightly in place.
And there you have it. A really simple solution to a not so real problem.
Plus there really are so many fun ways you can get creative, display or have fun with your salvaged t-shirt hoop art. Take this Birthday Girl t-shirt below, I bought kind of as a joke for my Shannon five years ago. It was on clearance at Charlotte Russe for $2 (nevermind why I was in that store in the first place) and we ended up wearing it every year trading off for our birthdays until it turned kind of ill fitted and dingy. Still wanting to keep the tradition alive of having it around for our birthday month I painted a hoop pink and slapped that bad boy in there! Now I can use it at any girl birthday celebration including my own. #noshame
Hope you’re inspired to repurpose some of the things you are Spring Cleaning out of your house! Also, I would love to know of other ways you have repurposed unused articles of clothing, or anything for that matter. There are lots of things we are planning to rid in this house but if there are creative ways to repurpose the unused I’m all ears. Leave me links in comments to check out some ideas.
This past week Micah was away in Switzerland. An amazing opportunity came up for him to take his hard working self away for a bit and go snowboarding in the Swiss Alps with some of his childhood friends. He wasn’t gong to go until I forced him. I knew if I didn’t make him, he wouldn’t. He works so hard for our little family and is about to start working even harder as he begins his masters program next week so I wanted him to be able to get a trip he truly deserved. So while he was taking in the beauty that Switzerland had to offer we were missing him like crazy here in California.
I didn’t expect it to be that hard but I think coming right off the holidays where we had lots of family time together it just made it almost unbearable.
We really didn’t do much of anything while he was away besides go to Disneyland once. Oh and the babes got super sick. Oh and we cried and missed Daddy. Yeah that sums up our week.
The one day I felt normal and happy was when we decided to get off our depressing sick bottoms and make lots of special things for Daddy’s return home. We wanted him to know he was missed and how much we loved him. He is such a gift to God to our family and couldn’t be more blessed by this man. So we got to work and when I say we I really mean the babes as the colored, painted and even helped me bake and decorate the celebration cake.
They love their daddy so much and couldn’t help but be overjoyed watching them run to greet him at the airport last night. We are so happy to have him home again with us but are sad knowing he has to leave again for a work trip in just a few days…
So we are just going to cuddle as a family and eat celebration cake until we say goodbye again.
So of course Micah couldn’t just travel to Switzerland to snowboard on the Swiss Alps without doing a little shopping in between. All the treasures he brought home for us was beyond thoughtful and of course surpassed the spoil meter’s maximum limit. This wasn’t your normal last minute airport souvenirs either. I’m talking lovingly thought out gifts he got each of us. Besides the gazillion pounds of random swiss chocolate he brought us, the hand selected truffles not to mention the delectable Swiss macaroons, he also bought special handcrafted gifts for Vernon and Elsie that he will give to them when they are older at different milestones in their lives.
There were fun souvenirs thrown in for all of us as well like Elsie’s new favorite Minnie Mouse that she is referring to as “Swiss Min” It is the cutest Minnie I’ve ever seen!
Though all the gifts were awesome the most amazing gift of all is this one of a kind handcrafted Cuckoo Clock he thoughtfully picked out for us as a family to have in our home. This will be cherished until we grow old and pass away in hopes that it will be passed onto our children and our children’s children. I almost died when I saw it! Like my mouth hit the floor and stayed there until Elsie squealed that it was like the “It’s a Small World Cuckoo clock at Disneyland” and I couldn’t stop laughing. Even she could see that this was a special treasure to be had.
No wonder we missed this man so much, he is such a treasure himself and we are so thankful for the love he has for our family. Though these gifts are fun we are more blessed by Micah and who he is and what he means to our family. God is so crazy good for giving us this man to call our own.
But now where to hang this cuckoo clock is the question?
Happy Friday All, hope you all have a blessed weekend! We will be getting in as much family time before Micah leaves for another long week, but this time for work. *sigh* I miss him already.
I know it’s Tuesday and I’m just getting around to talking about the weekend but yesterday didn’t really involve the computer much, nor did it involve changing out of my pi’s.
It was one of those lots of coloring, chalk drawing, book reading, how much fruit and pretzels can me and the babes consume because I forgot to buy bread to go with the new peanut butter and jelly and I’m not running back out to the store kind of day.
I came onto the computer twice to post but felt more like cuddling on the couch with Micah when he came home.
I had no words and was still soaking in the great weekend that had just passed and put packing for our upcoming trip out of my mind.
I attended the Elevate Blog Conference on Saturday and can’t believe I’m admitting that I didn’t use my own camera… not even once. So I will shamelessly have to steal borrow from other blogs when I write a post about how awesome the event was. I had no idea what to expect from this experience and honestly I didn’t expect to be so good. But it was, and I made some rad new friends, including Miss April from The Gingerbread Blog, who I’m borrowing a photo from to give you a glimpse of what the event was like.